The Birthday of a Libran…(27th Sept 1978)

How time flies and now as a proud 28 year old she is still searching for her life. About to finish college in a few days time, she hopes for a wonderful future where she can get love and a challenging career that would make her complete.

(Libra Sept 23rd to Oct 23rd)

My Birthstone by month and by zodiac is the same which is the beautiful Sapphire . In history this stone represented a pure soul. It was often worn by priests for protection from impure thoughts.

Positive traits
Diplomatic - Romantic - Artistic - Sensitive - Polite - Cooperative - Idealistic.

Negative traits
Self-doubting - Aggressive - Detached - Melancholic.

Relationships
Librans should never marry young, as they will invariably regret it at some time. They are romantics and require to be wined and dinned and swept off their feet! The are not very good judges of character in relationships and so should make haste slowly. When they do meet the right person, they make excellent partners and parents.

Career
Librans like to have and spend money, and mostly go for careers that provide just that, they are inclined to be materialistic, but are not too good at holding on to the money that they accrue. Generous in nature, they are popular work companions who are reliable and hard working. They are popular with friends, of which they often have a great many. They are never short of invites

Leisure
As a rule they do not like physical exertion, but will have periods in their lives when they frantically try to keep fit, only to drop the idea again when whatever crisis is past. Gentle steady exercise is the best for the Libra frame.

Colour - Green.

Animal Totem - Dragon.

Food – Beans

Flower – Orchid

Gemstone – Sapphire

Image – Gentle

Food - Breads, pulses, rice, pasta, with spicy toppings will suit Libra, as will very hot chilli and curry to add fire to the air in their sign.

Famous Librans

Margaret Thatcher
13/10/1925

Oscar Wilde
16/10/1854

Micheal Douglas
25/9/1944

Catherine Zeta Jone
25/9/1969

Mohandas Ghandi
2/10/1869

* Didn't know that Micheal Douglas and Zeta Jones had the same birth dates...HOW LUCKY!

Go away Evil..

24th September 2006 marked the start of Ramadan for all Muslims worldwide. I consider this as a start of self cleansing and healing from last year’s Hell on Earth and I pray to GOD to protect me from it ever occurring again. Although the journey through the whole of 2006 till present day made me realize all the things I thought I had lost, myself for once and my familiar surroundings - family and friends that I truly love and care about and that I had them all this while but were in a state of silence support.

They tried to reach out to me last year but I was bound mentally and physically to an ‘Evil Force’ that had his clutches on my life and soul, no matter how hard I tried to break free I just couldn’t. A Demon in the form of a human being that ate his way into my life by offering sweets just like in the story Hansel and Gretel. This Demon was feeding on my life force making me weaker by the day which gave him more power to control me. I became a zombie that waited for instructions to continue with MY LIFE. The things that made me happy no longer existed as it was ripped away from me and instead were replaced by tears of sorrow. Even tears were something that angered him and later purposeful mishaps befell me day in day out, trapped I was in my own home the place i no longer felt safe in, defenceless and defeated by this beast. Though my only solitude was when I was in college surrounded by friends for a few hours daily and even so, I couldn’t pour my heart out to them fearing the Demon may find out. The daily beatings truly robbed all my belief and the Demon was able to convince me that this was my fate that it was what GOD had wanted of me. He assured me that GOD would never pair a good soul with a bad one and there I was believing his every word that I was in fact with an Evil Soul. Looking in the mirror, I couldn’t realise the reflection anymore...no glow was in that face, a smile with pain behind them, swollen eyes due to crying and skin as pale as the dead. I prayed that GOD have mercy on me and save me from torture. I couldn’t take it anymore but it became a daily routine having him scorn me with words out of the Satanic Dictionary and my body became his punching bag. I cried for help, but no one could come to my rescue as my voice too he took away. My freedom of speech, I no longer had control of.

Further away from friends and family I felt I was dying till eventually I was able to get out as containing me indoors would jeopardise his wicked plans to fully consume me as his slave. Coming home with a broken spirit and having lost all self worth, I would talk to the wall and cry. My room was my solitude, the only place I felt safe. Hallucinating occasionally, my family sensed something was not right until I was sent to a Holy Man that diagnosed me as deeply sick and under control of an Evil Force.

Few weeks went by and I could hear myself laugh again. In the mirror I saw a bright cheerful person with glowing eyes that I never thought I’d see again. My soul had been restored and I was free from his clutches. Now I am fully myself and stronger.

No matter what, I am still on alert as the Demon may resurface. I PRAY TO GOD THAT HE KILL THIS DEMON and punish him with a taste of his own medicine and put him away where he can never hurt others.….Amin.

Why women cheat?

Picture this…a man who loves a woman unconditionally and wholeheartedly (wholeheartedly is a favourite word of mine), gives her everything he can within his means to make her happy. He’s always there for her, gives her all the support she needs, looks after her in her time of sickness. See’s her everyday he can. Always gives her cards and presents. Takes her out to fancy restaurants…all this he does to show her how much SHE MEANS TO HIM!! And whaddaya know, she cheats on him… (psychologically something must be wrong with her you think…hmmm…)

In the old days..(not ancient times!) a woman cheating on her partner was unheard of but in modern times the number of women who is cheating is growing like a slow virus! The only difference in men and women cheating is that men often cheat for physical reasons while women often have emotional reasons for cheating on their partner which includes loneliness, revenge, boredom and self esteem. These factors may be inexcusable but they do exist in the minds of a cheating woman..hahaha…take note all women out there!! More and more women are becoming guilty of cheating on their partners and it is often emotional reasons rather than lust that drive them to these affairs.

Women can be happy with their partner but still have secret affairs..WHY? It’s the thrill of the game of not being caught to see if she still has what it takes to get a man. Crazy, yes! God made us complicated yet gentle creatures and that is why men are still trying to understand us. We say one thing but mean another. Yet we say that we mean what we say and yet it may or not be that thing we were saying in the first place. Get it?? Something like this ‘honey am I fat? The lady expects the partner to give her an honest answer but also something she wants to hear...so..how are men not supposed to be confused by this??

Okay, back to the topic of cheating. Factors of cheating have been researched by the experts as:
1. Loneliness
2. Revenge
3. Boredom
4. Lack of self-esteem

Loneliness is one of the primary reasons that women seek out affairs and cheat on their partner. How can a women in a relationship be lonely one may ask as it sounds contradictory but it is often a relationship is not emotionally fulfilling. Women who are in relationships may feel as lonely if not more so than women who are single. When a woman does not receive the attention she feels she deserves in a relationship, she may be tempted to seek that attention elsewhere and later be involved in an affair. A partner who is overly involved with his work or a hobby may not make time or unable to find the time to spend with his partner and this often results in the women feeling as if they are all alone. To an extent that she can feel lonely even with his presence, thus driving her to cheat.

Revenge has also become and increasing factor in why women cheat. The modern woman is no longer willing to sit back and accept the fact that their partner may cheat on them. ‘Remember the term ‘Kill or be killed’ well this is somewhat the same. If a woman is sure or even suspicious that their partner is cheating on them, they may be driven to engage in an affair of their own as an act of revenge. The theory of, “An eye for an eye,” has unfortunately trickled down into the realm of romantic relationships where many women see a cheating partner as a justification to have an affair of their own. They believe that they have justified in having an affair if they catch their partner cheating on them. Cheat first so that when the partner cheats then they can say this is why I cheated on you because I knew you’d cheat. It does sound abit twisted! Cuckoo even…but that’s the truth…

Boredom may also be a factor into why women cheat. Some couples when they have been together for a long time, the relationship has somewhat turned into something of a routine. Everything is predictable, no more sparks, no more magic, no more excitement like when they first existed as a couple where love was in the air and you can smell the roses! Rather than trying to bring excitement into their current relationship (which they was supposed to do!! ) they may pursue affairs in the hopes of achieving the excitement they used to feel. An affair may bring about a temporary solution of making the woman feel excited about love again but it may ultimately destroy both their current relationship as well as their cheating relationship. The cheating relationship may want a real relationship but the current relationship after knowing she cheated may want to end it although there are partners who love their lady so much that they are willing to give her another chance. An affair is exciting not only because it involves a relationship with a new person but also because it involves sneaking around and ultimately getting away with doing something wrong. Risk is always exciting as women are trying to beat the odds of getting caught as they are willing to ‘RISK’ losing their relationship over their affair. Women want to feel love and also excitement, the way they thought they can get it is by engaging in an affair. (Be the judge of this!)

Another reason why women cheat is a lack of self esteem. Women want to feel pampered, loved and admired and when they feel that they are not getting that from their partner they may be tempted to cheat to affirm that they are still attractive and desirable. When a relationship meets a stagnant point where both partners have become too comfortable with each other and no efforts are being made to spice up the relationship to a point where they feel desirable, many women begin to feel insecure. This insecurity leads women to seek affirmation of their desirability outside of the relationship in the form of an affair. When found desirable by another it compensates for the lack of longing they feel from their partner and helps to boost their self esteem. While women with a healthy self esteem are more apt to remain happy in a relationship, those that lack self esteem are often driven to cheat on their partners.

Loneliness, Revenge, Boredom and Self-esteem…what does it all comes down to? Basically women will feel unhappy when what she has is no longer enough for her (this is what she thinks but isn’t sure of!) So, in her screwed up and complicated mind they somehow can come up with reasons to cheating. I was happy and yet I did cheat. Now, it doesn’t make any sense as all my relationships in the past did not work…they all self destruct because of my own actions. You see ladies, when you start to feel insecure that is when you start doing stupid things that at the end of the day destroys your relationship which in the beginning was perfect! So, what should be done is, makesure that when you start a relationship you should give as much as you’d want to receive. An equal share is what is best. The fire of love should be kept alive no matter how old the relationship is…

The Woman's Brain

I came across this and forgot the source (please I beg for mercy if they decide to sue me under the copyright act), and it rather tickled my funny bone. When you look at it long enough, it does make sense, whoppee!! No wonder my urge for shoes is huge, look at the size of the gland! And yes, to those who really know me will absolutely agree that I talk too much..hee hee..not that they tell me to shut up or anything just that they enjoy talking to me (I think so…hmmm). And Yes, my constant migraine, usually its because I don’t get enough sleep or due to self conflicts that I find hard to resolve.

OK, lets go into this again shall we. Clockwise:

1. Impulse Shopping
Shopping, our favourite word. I call it therapy, because it always lifts up my spirit each time I buy something. It doesn’t have to be expensive just the feeling of owning that piece of new clothing, or new underwear. I think, women should be earning more because we do most of the shopping and we are the ones contributing towards the economy (here! here!). When walking in a department store, it’s almost rare to find our male counterparts (I’m talking about the straight ones) fiddling over a glass jar, or even in the men’s section. We women buy our men clothes, because we are supposed to be the caretakers towards their wellbeing and little things that they can’t even do on their own. “Honey, how do I turn on the microwave?”..and we rush to the kitchen to do it for them fearing they might blow something up!

2. Anniversaries and Birthdays
I must agree, we are really good at remembering these things. Have you ever tried this down, I mean take a piece of paper and write down all those people to actually know their birthdays by heart. It’s amazing at what you’ll find out. I wished this could have been put to use while I was studying for all my important exams (UPSR, PMR and SPM). Men, sometimes they even forget their own birthday so how can we blame them when we dress up really nice on that Friday nite waiting by the door and waiting and waiting and still he hasn’t come home..It’s your 3 year Anniversary and it somehow slipped their mind!! Hurrah for the male species!!

3. Gold Digging Sensory
Breakfast at Hilton’s, Lunch at Palace of the Golden Horses and Dinner within the rotating restaurant at the KL Tower! Who doesn’t hope for a good life, a life without the worrying of financial insecurities? So, don’t blame us when we hunt down men with money, It’s in our genes. We were born with it. Money First, Love Later? What are you?

4. Toilet Cleaning
Who likes cleaning the toilet? (Is it just me raising up my wee little hand?) Well, I just love the idea of going into a clean fragrant toilet!

5. Sex Initiator Gland
So small is the gland, almost invisible. I guess in my experience, I love to be seduced..i mean playing hard to get..cat and mouse chase. We only start when we want something right? So, there’s that!!

6. Gossip Control Center
Why are we so interested in the lives of others although we don’t actually know them. Let’s talk about celebrities! I mean the latest gossip I tried to avoid was Malaysia’s Singing Sweetheart marrying a Dato’ with kids…and he even divorced his wife few months before they announced the wedding? Hmm…see that’s where it starts. Perhaps all we can do is see if the marriage works and later when it doesn’t we can have another gossip session telling her ‘I told you so’.

7. Driving Skills
Raise up your hand if you’ve never ever hit anything in your life while driving! Well, you know why there’s no women in the F1..har har har.

8. I Told you so gland
A sense of always wanting to be correct. We just can’t help it when someone we know screw up and later tell them I told you so because few months earlier they came to us for advice but later chose to follow their heart. But actually, if they followed our advice and still they screwed up we’ll always say, That’s just darn too bad…oh boo hoo hoo!

9. Melrose Place Gland
Now, this gland is where we watch our favourite shows. And now we’re hot about Desperate Housewives. The show somehow gives us some motivation that we are normal, and by doing this and that is actually normal. We talk about the shows, we idolize the characters and we try to be them. No ones perfect you know!

10. Shiny Things & Diamonds Olfactory
“Diamonds are a girls bestfriend”, its ‘are’ not ‘is’ so yes, more than one! Remember Marilyn Monroe who sang that song? We are instantly bedazzled by shiny objects and yes DIAMONDS! Each time I walk past a jewelry store, I can’t help but stop and admire the gorgeous bling blings on display. Though we say its what come from the heart that counts, but deep inside we wished hard that they give us jewelry.

11. Realization of Wants Vs. Needs
We women folk can never distinguish between the two! Whatever we want we need! Ya see!!

12. Shoes
For the Love of Shoes! Why is it that we can never stick to the principle of buying shoes anymore? That blacks goes with anything? Because, Its much more prettier when our shoes match our outfits. So, if you have more than 5 pairs of shoes of the same genre then yes you’re a shoe addict.

13. Headache Generator
We have headaches because of all the other glands. Its tiring to have to worry about everything, ain’t it?

14. Talk, Talk and more Talk.
Look at the gossip gland and you’ll certainly know why this gland is the size it is.

Conclusion: Men should not try to understand women, because we ourselves have a hard time of understanding ourselves! CHEERS!

Rum Raisin My Ultimate Passion...

Whenever I feel Blue, all I need is a bowl of YOU!! I just go out and buy a tub but if you want to make it yourself, here is the RECIPE!!

1 cup (packed) raisins
2/3 cup dark rum
8 large egg yolks1 cup sugar
3 cups milk (do not use low-fat or nonfat)
1 1/2 cups whipping cream

Combine raisins and rum in small bowl.
Cover; let stand at room temperature 2 hours.
Drain raisins, reserving 6 tablespoons rum. Combine in same bowl.
Whisk egg yolks and sugar in large bowl until blended.
Bring milk and whipping cream to boil in heavy large saucepan over medium heat.
Gradually whisk into yolk mixture.
Return mixture to saucepan; stir over medium-low heat until custard thickens, about 15 minutes (do not boil).
Strain custard into bowl. Cool. Add raisin mixture to custard. Refrigerate until cold.
Transfer custard to ice cream maker and process according to manufacturer―s instructions. Freeze ice cream in covered container until firm, about 4 hours. (Can be prepared 3 days ahead.)
Serves 10.

Taken From : http://www.epicurious.com

It really lifts my spirit up each time!! May you enjoy it as much as I do!!

To ERR is Human, To Forgive DEVINE...

The verb "err" means to do something wrong; to make a mistake is "to err". "To err is human" because all people ("humans") make mistakes. "To err is human, to forgive divine" says we should try hard to forgive others because all people are human and its human nature that we make mistakes. When we make mistakes, we want others to forgive us right? So, its a win-win situation.

Example: "I hate what he did to me.''

Answer: "It is best to just let it go; to err is human, to forgive divine."

The world of people is "human" and the world of God is "divine". God's special power to forgive people for their mistakes is called "divine" mercy. When we forgive other people we are acting "divine". Only god is able to absolutely forgive without having any fallbacks..we on the other hand have some issues still connecting us to the person. Its hard for us 'Humans' to actually have the will to let go..

"To err is human, to forgive divine" says that we are all human and we all make mistakes so we should all try hard to forgive other people when they make mistakes.

Example: "I will never forgive my mother for what she has done!"

Answer: "Don't be angry at her. To err is human, to forgive divine." (Because we use the word "is" in the first phrase "to err is human" we do not use "is" again in the second phrase: "to forgive divine".)

We are all people who make mistakes so to forgive others when they make mistakes is the right thing to do; "to err is human, to forgive divine."

Ensem V Tak Ensem?

What do you think about this?

Kalau lelaki handsome pendiam
Perempuan akan cakap:: woow, cool giler...
kalau lelaki tak handsome pendiam
Perempuan akan cakap: eh perasan bagus...
kalau lelaki handsome berbuat jahat
Perempuan akan kata: nobody's perfect
kalau lelaki tak handsome berbuat jahat
perempuan akan cakap: memang.... muka pun macam pecah rumah!

kalau lelaki handsome menolong perempuan yg diganggu
perempuan akan cakap: wah.. machonya.. macam hero filem!
kalau lelaki tak handsome menolong perempuan yang diganggu
Perempuan akan kata: entah2 kawan dia...
kalau lelaki handsome dapat perempuan cantik
perempuan akan kata: sepadan sangat...
kalau lelaki tak handsome dapat perempuan cantik
perempuan akan kata: mesti kena bomoh perempuan tuh!

kalau lelaki handsome ditinggal kekasih
perempuan akan kata: jangan sedih, kan saya ada..
kalau lelaki tak handsome ditinggal kekasih
perempuan akan kata:...(terdiam, tapi telunjuknya meliuk-liuk dari atas ke bawah, patutlah, tengok saja luarannya)...
kalau lelaki handsome penyayang binatang
perempuan akan cakap: perasaannya halus...penuh kasih sayang
kalau lelaki tak handsome penyayang binatang
perempuan akan cakap: sesama keluarga memang harus menyayangi...

kalau lelaki handsome bawa BMW
perempuan akan cakap: matching... hebat luar dalam
kalau lelaki tak handsome bawa BMW
perempuan akan cakap: bang, bosnya mana?...
kalau lelaki handsome tak mau bergambar
perempuan akan cakap: pasti takut kalau2 gambarnya tersebar
kalau lelaki tak handsome tak mau bergambar
perempuan akan kata: tak sanggup melihat hasilnya ya?...

kalau lelaki handsome menuang air ke gelas perempuan
perempuan akan cakap:ini barulah lelaki gentlemen
kalau lelaki tak handsome menuang air ke gelas perempuan
perempuan akan cakap: naluri pembantu, memang begitu....
kalau lelaki handsome bersedih hati
perempuan akan cakap: let me be your shoulder to cry on
kalau lelaki tak handsome bersedih hati
perempuan akan kata: kuat nangis!! lelaki ke bukan ni?

Is it LOVE???

What is love actually? I recently was made notice that the love I thought I felt was not actually whole yet. Loving someone means that you should accept them the way they are…the type of work that they do, their attitude, their personality, everything…When you love them ‘WHOLEHEARTEDLY’ only then will we be able to live by their side no matter how hard life gets.

-To love and honour in sickness and in health, through thick and thin, happiness and sorrow till death do us part!.. I thought I did love him sincerely..but from what I told him he said that he no longer knew me, he felt that I’m far and that there’s a possibility I may leave him. ‘Leave Him’..a word I know too well..I am a master at packing up and leaving just like that though a relationship is working! Crazy?? Yes, now I see it…I see it after it happens only to realize later that my actions were foolish and the actual person suffering was no other than ME..ME..ME!! Poor me! I should realize this now but I don’t know how. I can’t leave then find out later when later maybe too late to even go back! Ya see, I think I am screwed for life, cursed to even have this sort of feeling.

My definition of Love seems a myth, my idea of it..only in my imagination (UNREAL!!...but is it?). I know that I love spending every bit of my time with him, I know I miss him, I can’t stand not hearing his voice in a day..but can that be interpreted as Love? I was told that I have to find ‘What I Want, and what actually I am searching for in life…to know myself first then I’ll be able to love others as they love me..to give the ultimate love..TRUE LOVE! Someone used to tell me ‘I never loved him wholeheartedly’. though I tried and at the end I thought I did but then again…I’m not too sure now. Am I in Love with the idea of being in Love or am I really in Love? I am still unable to answer this question myself for myself…till then my heart will be in serious Jeopardy.

The L Word...

Some may have heard it but it's the new hit tv series in the US right now and already ended season 3. I came across the show when i was looking up summaries to my tv shows (the one's i missed)..and there it was.. The L Word. The title was catchy do, i went to the website and gosh..a tv show for Lesbians...hurray to them!!

When i told my brother apparently he knew about the show... so, i downloaded a few episodes and watched it with the utmost interest. Nothing is censored...well i got to see many sizes of breast (looking down at mine...hmmm not a bad size...I shouldn't be ashamed at all...hee hee).

There was one issue in that was brought up which was a child being raised by Lesbian Parents. Is it unethical? To me, i totally disagree that parents of the same gender be allowed to adopt a child and try to raise it as a normal child. I mean, there will be possibilities that the child will turn out like the parents because children idolise their parents right! Not to say that children with normal parents should turn out normal.. I guess it's their biological body and their influences that make a child turn out the way they are. I can't even say if I'm normal...hmmm

In a Society like Malaysia, this topic is never discussed in public and those that are gay choose to hide their secret as they are afraid they are never accepted by society. Once society accepts, then there will be a way to legalise the idea...(religion vs 'this new idea = a big disaster!)

What i would like to know is..are we truly sincere when we say we accept people for who they are and not discriminate them behind their back? As a friend, some of us may say that they accept if the friend is not straight. But look into the future and ponder...what if my child is gay..can i live with the fact?? hmmm....

How can you tell if you're in Love?

At one point, we're all asking this to ourselves 'Do I love her/him?'..How can we be sure that the feeling is love and not just a crazy crush? I was given the idea that when you're in love you're:

1) Happy all the time (can't dispute that...)
2) You gain weight way too easily (A++ to that!!)
3) A sense that somethings not in place when the person's not nearby. (YEAP)..i miss you!
4) Wanting to be together all the time (yeahhhhhh...)
5) Want to hear their voice 1st thing you wake up and the last voice before we sleep (So True!)
6) Craving for sweet stuff? (ahh, thats just my sweet tooth cravings...hee hee)

Well, if you answered atleast YES to three..then you are in the boat!

All the above are the author's opinion on what love is...